i want to go somewhere lonesome, solitary, empty, apart, deserted, companionless, desolate, destitute, estranged, reclusive. i want to scream and scream and scream, so loud i will never hear silence. i want to wither and crumble and erode. i want to cry these ugly tears until i fall weak on my knees, i want to curse and hurt the sky. i want to never see the sun and i want to hold you.